Shutting Down

Apparently I'm shutting down and closing myself from people lately. Not sure what this is about but I have the incredible urge to do so. I have been visiting with 2 men interested in me now for several months. I quit talking to both of them. But, both of them I don't see a future with. 1 is married and hasn't made a decision to do anything and the 2nd, well lets just say, he's a lil nuts. Then, the people at work. Alex is a great friend and we visit off and on. But some days, he is a lot of work. He looks at the cup 1/2 empty instead of full. That gets very tiring some days. It seems like there are a lot of those types of people in my life and it's very wearing. In fact I have decided that all men are a lot of work. I'm so very thankful for my sister for allowing me to live with her. I wish there was something more I could do for her to help her mood as well. But, I've come to realize there isn't anything at all. So, I need to back off and let her figure it out for herself. This is hard for me, I want to help. Anyway, this is why I've not posted much lately and I'm not very friendly or talkative.

Visions

Do you believe in a person able to have "Visions"? I had a certain person tell me he seen me "blissfully" happy in my near future with a someone that I already know. This person has had this happen unexpectedly in the past and its come out true. So do I believe him or not? Then who would it be? I can't imagine who I could be blissfully happy with in my near future?? Hmmmm....

Being sick

I have had pneumonia since New Years Eve. I am tired of having to stay home and do nothing. I am just now getting back from the clinic for another IV, just fluids. It appears I dehydrate quickly. In the mean time, something is going on with my stomach, I'm having trouble keeping foods down. I've been off and on antibiotics since about the 1st of November, and end result, pneumonia. Right now they don't see anything else wrong with me, so I guess I was distend to just be sick and my body told me to slow down for awhile. But, today I got the ok to go back to work on Monday if I stay home in the mean time and get some rest. So, that's the plan stay on my butt and get better. This could be worse I guess. I have a cousin that is basically on her death bed and still just trucks along trying to be tough for her family. So, enough of my complaining. I'm bucking up, resting like I'm supposed to and hopefully back to work like normal on Monday!

New Years Resolutions

It's the beginning of 2010 and I have made some New Years Resolutions. Beings I spent New Years Eve in the ER due to pneumonia, 1 is to get Healthier. Not just to loose weight, but to be healthy. I've had an on going ear issue for several years, so I'm going to get to the bottom of that Then, I keep catching everything that goes around here, thank goodness not the swine flu! Knocking on wood! I plan on paying more attention to the way I eat, I have good eating habits already, but going to get better. I plan on going back to exercising as soon as the doc releases me too. Take the vitamins that my niece has told me to take and just all around get healthier. 2nd, OK, some of you are going to be ashamed of me. But, never again allow a married man to sweep me off my feet. I can't take the fact that I could be responsible for the pain and suffering that 2 of my good friends are going through right now because of cheating husbands. It will never happen again. Now I am concerned that my 2010 is starting out in a bad way because I'm so sick, but I'm hoping it's just a bump and not a sign of how the rest of the year is going to be.