Shutting Down

Apparently I'm shutting down and closing myself from people lately. Not sure what this is about but I have the incredible urge to do so. I have been visiting with 2 men interested in me now for several months. I quit talking to both of them. But, both of them I don't see a future with. 1 is married and hasn't made a decision to do anything and the 2nd, well lets just say, he's a lil nuts. Then, the people at work. Alex is a great friend and we visit off and on. But some days, he is a lot of work. He looks at the cup 1/2 empty instead of full. That gets very tiring some days. It seems like there are a lot of those types of people in my life and it's very wearing. In fact I have decided that all men are a lot of work. I'm so very thankful for my sister for allowing me to live with her. I wish there was something more I could do for her to help her mood as well. But, I've come to realize there isn't anything at all. So, I need to back off and let her figure it out for herself. This is hard for me, I want to help. Anyway, this is why I've not posted much lately and I'm not very friendly or talkative.

Visions

Do you believe in a person able to have "Visions"? I had a certain person tell me he seen me "blissfully" happy in my near future with a someone that I already know. This person has had this happen unexpectedly in the past and its come out true. So do I believe him or not? Then who would it be? I can't imagine who I could be blissfully happy with in my near future?? Hmmmm....

Being sick

I have had pneumonia since New Years Eve. I am tired of having to stay home and do nothing. I am just now getting back from the clinic for another IV, just fluids. It appears I dehydrate quickly. In the mean time, something is going on with my stomach, I'm having trouble keeping foods down. I've been off and on antibiotics since about the 1st of November, and end result, pneumonia. Right now they don't see anything else wrong with me, so I guess I was distend to just be sick and my body told me to slow down for awhile. But, today I got the ok to go back to work on Monday if I stay home in the mean time and get some rest. So, that's the plan stay on my butt and get better. This could be worse I guess. I have a cousin that is basically on her death bed and still just trucks along trying to be tough for her family. So, enough of my complaining. I'm bucking up, resting like I'm supposed to and hopefully back to work like normal on Monday!

New Years Resolutions

It's the beginning of 2010 and I have made some New Years Resolutions. Beings I spent New Years Eve in the ER due to pneumonia, 1 is to get Healthier. Not just to loose weight, but to be healthy. I've had an on going ear issue for several years, so I'm going to get to the bottom of that Then, I keep catching everything that goes around here, thank goodness not the swine flu! Knocking on wood! I plan on paying more attention to the way I eat, I have good eating habits already, but going to get better. I plan on going back to exercising as soon as the doc releases me too. Take the vitamins that my niece has told me to take and just all around get healthier. 2nd, OK, some of you are going to be ashamed of me. But, never again allow a married man to sweep me off my feet. I can't take the fact that I could be responsible for the pain and suffering that 2 of my good friends are going through right now because of cheating husbands. It will never happen again. Now I am concerned that my 2010 is starting out in a bad way because I'm so sick, but I'm hoping it's just a bump and not a sign of how the rest of the year is going to be.

Where I work

I work for the Worlds Larges Gold Company at their largest gold mine site. It's about 60 miles from town, I travel about an hour and 1/2 one way each day. But, it's OK, I only work 4 days a week, 4/10's, so I'm gone from home 13 hours a day. For the most part, it's a real good job. It's good pay and the people are good to me. We have 1700 employee's employed at this site alone. We have 3 other sites in Northern Nevada. We have an Open Pit Division, Underground Division and a Process area, then of course the support groups, which I work in. I work for the Business Improvement/Continues Improvement department. Now, don't ask what is that? Cause I'm still trying to figure it out. I have what is called Green Belt in Six Sigma, which is specialty of business lean tools. But, to apply these tools is a long process of learning and doing them. A lot of the job as a BI Coach (I am not one) is talking in front of people and leading these tools that we've all learned. Luckily, right now I'm just what they call Admin Tech. I do the administration duties, but in the mean time, I'm doing the classes and stuff right alone with the coaches and am thrown into situations that a coach would normally do. It's been crazy, and I'm learning a lot, but not sure I want to do the "Coach" thing? Right now during the holiday's it's pretty quiet around here. The mine and operations are all still going 24/7. Those people are on rotating shifts. But, us support people are lucky to have holidays and weekends off usually. Most of my team took these last 2 weeks off so I've been on my own. Last week it was nice to have the peace and quiet, but this week it's a lil boring. I'm glad I'm only working 2 days this week. I've had things to get caught up on and stuff, but it's just a little lonely without other human contact. My office is right next to the managers area, but they all had the holiday weeks off as well. The people you will be hearing about in my blog from here for the most part my team. Lisa is a Coach. Yes another Lisa. Everyone makes jokes all the time. They walk by and say "Hi, Lisa's". Stuff like that all the time. We are also the only girls in our group. Our boss Joe, who is the manager of the BI group, says we run this group. Not even... Alex, used to work in our group on the Energy part, but has recently moved into another Energy department with the Open Pit. We still talk to him daily and he hangs with us outside of work. He's in Thailand for the Holiday's, missing communicating with him. Tony, is another Coach. Let's just say, Lisa and I don't like him very much. He's gross and lazy. Pablo is another Coach. He just came on board about 3 months ago. He's from TX/Mexico, yes alien. Then we have coaches that are outside of our area but still apart of our group. Kevin is with the Open Pit, poor guy is shy I think. He doesn't know what to make of our group, he's only been apart for maybe 5 months. He's really sweet though. Don and Pat from the Underground. Pat is really new, still getting to know him. Don and I have become good friends I'd like to think. He is the one that took me underground for the 1st time, which I loved the experience! Ready to go back! Keith works in the Environmental group downstairs in my same building. He is so outgoing, everyone knows him. Keith has gotten me into Hot Air Balloons, good friend. Donnie works in the Process group. Apparently he's been in love with me since the 1st day he seen me. He's married, but has turned into a friend and he says he wants more once he gets his divorce. Again, married man... ugh... I guess I will fill you in on the rest of the people as we go.

My 1st Blog

Hanging out with my nieces over the weekend, I've learned that blogging isn't all that hard. So, I'm going to give it a shot and see how it goes. I am a 40+ single mom who has raised her girls alone for 15+ years. They now live 180 miles away, one lives with her dad and the other lives on her own and has my 1st grandson. I don't like it very much that they live so far away, but it's done us all a lot of good. We all now appreciate the other so much more. I work for a very large gold mine about 60 miles from town. I work in what they call the Business Improvement group as the administration tech. I've learned a lot since being here the last 2 years. I am now a Six Sigma Green Belt in Business. We specialize in "Lean Tools". I don't think I could ever become what they call a Coach. I have a horrible fear of speaking in front of a lot people and that is a big part of that job. I am single at the moment. Have had my share of relationships, good ones and bad ones. I am about to the point of giving up on any hope of sharing my life with anyone special. I went 6 years after my divorce with no one. My girls were my priority. The last 9 years hasn't been all that good. Last winter I was living with a man, whom one day we were planning some sort of future and we were very happy, and the very next day decided he didn't want to live together any more. That broke my heart. I had a week to get out, so I moved in with my sister, and now I am not sure I'm ready to live alone again, so still with her. Since then, I have just had some dates here and there nothing real significant. It seems all I can attract are much older men, married men or drunks. So, not having much luck. Would like to know why married men are even looking? Anyway, that is it for now.